Yeah, based on my very accurate predictions, I had let my blog die after for posts...
So, I will start again.
-ahem-
Just when I was riding on a wave of confidence, things have crashed down again. Oh, it's not just the exams but another sudden realisation that I suck at handling certain things by overthinking it.
I feel that lately I've been speaking less, sometimes nervous to a point where I make myself sick. In certain situations, I find myself worried about what the other feels about me underneath the fact that I am mentally critising them. I told my sister bluntly the other day to grow up and stop relying on me to get her homework done. Even to a close friend- who has a habit of repeating certain things often- I looked away and ignored what she said altogether instead of giving the polite nod or generic reply.
I have even completely given up on worrying about test results. Even if I said I did- that was just to not look out of place. Don't particularly care for the facebook apps I'm addicted to and don't care for my art anymore because it still sucks compared to those on gaia/deviantart.
What happened to me? Did modern day teenage cynicism just randomly take over?
Or is it that my mum is that way? Haha.
No.
It must be my annual near-Easter depression.
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